I received many valentines today from my kids at the liberry. They were sooo cute. I had planned on giving them- in addition to the lovely Hello Kitty valentines I handed out- pencils. Yes, I am the daughter of a teacher. But, I couldn't find where I had put them and therefore they received leis. Yes, leis! Left over from my birthday. Thank goodness they loved them! Made the day go a lot easier. Received a phone call from my ex-boyfriend wishing me happy day. I got mushy and he said it was all his fault. I know I don't miss him, but I miss the idea of him. I know pitiful.
He called me at like 11:45pm on a Saturday night about two weeks ago. He called me. I had just come home from eating yummy sushi @ SPR. I had been expecting M to call and so I just grabbed and answered- bad deal! He wanted to see me. Why, I still don't know. But, I don't know why- I guess some morbid curiosity- I wanted to see him too. We met at R P Tracks- can we say public place?! It was sooo strange. I don't even know that person anymore. I think he's depressed. He'd never admit that! I feel soo much better. I seemed to have no feelings for him beyond wishing him the best in life. I think he thought I'd say- why didn't you want to marry me... blah blah blah. But I looked at him- really looked and I'm not that same girl. He is definitely not the same guy I met so long ago. It was surreal. I am soooo much better off! therapy, medicine and time- all I really needed to do was sit down and look at him and realize- he is NOT the one. But, now I think about him all the time it seems. Weird. Last night I dreamed that he came up to me and said he was leaving his wife, and that he loved me. Soooo bizarre!
I don't need him. It's official. I need to start dating again.
1 comment:
Halle-freakin'-luiah!
Heart you.
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