The pneumonia!

So we went to the doctor on Monday. After four hours, 2 different exam rooms, several x-rays, two shots - 1 in each hip- two breathing treatments and several discussions with the doctor, it was decided that momma had the pneumonia! Oh brother. Can we say exhausted. I have come to the decision that I am not meant to be a momma. I am too selfish. I am too lazy. I am unable to sleep while listening for someone else in the other room. Definitely exhausted.

She is off work for the rest of the week and we have to go back on Friday to have another chest x-ray to see how she is progressing. Keep your fingers crossed! I'm to the point now where I'm gonna sleep in the bed next to her so that I don't have to run from one room to the other!

Momma's sick.... day 5!

Some of you know that my Dad died 9 years ago this October of lung cancer. Some days it feels like it was yesterday... some days it feels like a lifetime ago.

So with momma being sick, it's kinda freaking me out. I have never seen her this weak. This exhausted. Last night she ate some dinner. Unfortunately it just made her more sick to her stomach. But, she did get a little more color in her face. YAY! Well then late last night - after her dose of Advil for the night- she had fallen asleep. I was laying on the side of the bed, because by this point, I figure it's easier for me to lay here for a while instead of jumping up from my bed every little while. That did not work out. Because her ears are so stopped up, she couldn't hear me and she would forget that I was there. If I moved, it startled her. So needless to say, I went back to my room and lay in bed all night, clenching my jaw, waiting for her to call for me. I don't know what time I finally passed out from exhaustion but I'm thinking I got some solid sleep between 4 and 7:30a.m.

Only 30 more minutes until I get off of work. I'm picking momma up, we're going to the doc and getting her on some good meds! And I am gonna take some good meds and relax!

Momma has the flu

So I have been a nurse for the last couple of days. I gave my mother the flu. We have both pledged to never go another flu season without getting the shot! I have also come to the conclusion that I love my mother more than life, but I am not a good nurse. I lay awake at night waiting to hear her say "K-K". Every 4 hours- I have set the alarm on my cell phone to alert me of the time- I give out the Tylenol or Advil dose. I give her a fresh washcloth, cover her up and change out her water/gatorade/Diet Coke of the moment and pray she will pass back out. Tomorrow we go to the Minor Med. She needs a high dose antibiotic! The germs are flying and I'm praying that I don't get sick again. I already missed 6 days of work. The flu must be eradicated!!! Kill the flu germs! Save the world!

Fat Tuesday

Today is Fat Tuesday. The last day to 'pig out' before Lent. Tomorrow I start on my 40 days of no bread. Pray for me. Pray hard! I need it. I have to fit into a turquoise (aka pool) colored bridesmaid dress. (You know I'm playing with you A aka Bride-to-be!) by the end of June and this is going to get me there. Last time I tried this I lost 35 pounds. So no tempting me. No more eating the Krispy Kremes that my boss loves to bring in for us and no more getting breadsticks for lunch from Little Caesar's. Can you say Pizza Pizza!!




So M sent this email:

Check out Charming but Single. She has an awesome Lent promise.

Ok b/c I know you won't go and look at it....

Like the Good Little Catholic Girls We Are
Published February 19th, 2007

"I'm giving up Cokes for Lent," The Banker announced.
"I'm giving up sweets and probably bread," Married Girlfriend added.
They turned to me.
"I'm giving up being bitter about not having a boyfriend."

So I say to Charming- I'm right there with you sister!! I'm adding that to my no bread Lenten promise!

Good Lord- just realized my iPod has been on for like the last hour in my drawer at work. Oh well. Happy Fat Tuesday to ya!

Momma and Erlay

This is momma and Erlay-when she was home for Christmas. We hope she will come home for Easter or (mom's) Spring Break. Oklahoma City- land of the leaning trees and wind. Ick! Just kidding Erlay!!!

Momma and Erlay

This is momma and Erlay-when she was home for Christmas. We hope she will come home for Easter or (mom's) Spring Break. Oklahoma City- land of the leaning trees and wind. Ick! Just kidding Erlay!!!

Happy Christmas! Two months late...

Ok, so I am a little late posting this. This is my little sis in front of our Christmas tree. We were so late putting it up that it was kinda sparse looking. But that's Erlay (that's what we call her!! ok, only when we are teasing) taking her own pic in front of the tree.

Happy Balentine's Day from the Liberry...

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

I received many valentines today from my kids at the liberry. They were sooo cute. I had planned on giving them- in addition to the lovely Hello Kitty valentines I handed out- pencils. Yes, I am the daughter of a teacher. But, I couldn't find where I had put them and therefore they received leis. Yes, leis! Left over from my birthday. Thank goodness they loved them! Made the day go a lot easier. Received a phone call from my ex-boyfriend wishing me happy day. I got mushy and he said it was all his fault. I know I don't miss him, but I miss the idea of him. I know pitiful.

He called me at like 11:45pm on a Saturday night about two weeks ago. He called me. I had just come home from eating yummy sushi @ SPR. I had been expecting M to call and so I just grabbed and answered- bad deal! He wanted to see me. Why, I still don't know. But, I don't know why- I guess some morbid curiosity- I wanted to see him too. We met at R P Tracks- can we say public place?! It was sooo strange. I don't even know that person anymore. I think he's depressed. He'd never admit that! I feel soo much better. I seemed to have no feelings for him beyond wishing him the best in life. I think he thought I'd say- why didn't you want to marry me... blah blah blah. But I looked at him- really looked and I'm not that same girl. He is definitely not the same guy I met so long ago. It was surreal. I am soooo much better off! therapy, medicine and time- all I really needed to do was sit down and look at him and realize- he is NOT the one. But, now I think about him all the time it seems. Weird. Last night I dreamed that he came up to me and said he was leaving his wife, and that he loved me. Soooo bizarre!

I don't need him. It's official. I need to start dating again.