Ok, I have had bad thoughts about the married ex-boyfriend. Seriously bad! I really need a date! Really. seriously. badly. He has called several times since we met for drinks and it stirred up some stuff in me. Now, I know he is bad news! BAD NEWS! I know he is married. I DO! But, I'm just lonely. YES- LONELY! We dated off and on for nearly 7 years. I honestly didn't think about dating again until recently. I was with the same person the entire time I was in college and afterwards. Also, both our fathers died while we were together. There was a lot of firsts. A lot of baggage, a lot of good times, and a lot of tears. But, I need to move on! I'm ready to do that- now where's the man to help me move there? I know I have a lot of great friends. I have some fantastic close friends! But, I haven't been on a date in a LONGGGG time. I need male companionship. I'm also over the clubbing until all hours of the night. I want to go to a nice dinner, see a movie and then go home. Or grab a pizza and rent movies and lay on the couch watching them all night. I'm ready for calmness. Relaxation. Us time. I'm ready for double dates to the Orpheum shows. A night in Tunica. A weekend getaway to somewhere! I'm ready! So for now- now I need to get a personal life again.
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